We sent Aaron to preschool this week. This is it--my last one in preschool. Almost every day this week he tells me, "Enjoy this year with me at home Mommy, because next year? Kindergarten!" As if I needed to be reminded, right? Ah Aaron, I AM enjoying this year with you at home.
Aaron standing at his "locker" on his first day
Last night I took my boys to our high school football game...in the rain. Never done that before! This is our third year going to these games, and it's become such a fun time for us. We look forward to it all week, so not even rain stopped us from going! Derek works the games, and the boys especially like seeing him there. Someday they won't like their dad's job, but I don't like to think about that... As we sat in the bleachers on a plastic tablecloth, huddled underneath 2 umbrellas, I thought this just might be my favorite game with them yet. Braylen didn't wander the stadium with his friends. Aaron kept remarking how neat the rain looked in the stadium lights. Watching the rain fall felt cleansing to me. In less than 2 years, Braylen will be sitting in the middle school section. Kaleb and Aaron will follow. Friends and peer groups will be their world. I will sit alone, with my own friends, or maybe even Derek, if he's not working. I will remember the days when my boys sat with me and wonder where those days went. I'm dancing on the edge of some changes along this journey called mothering, and honestly, I'm not sure I like how it feels. Yes, I'm enjoying these days I'm in now. No, I'm not living in fear of days to come. They will bring good things too. Let's just say I've been reminded to not take any stage for granted. I can enjoy what's in front of me, even when it's raining.
2 comments:
Sarah, even such simple posts from you are so thoughtful and profound. I love the way you share your true heart. I learn so much from you as a mom just one step ahead of me.
thanks for the reminder to not wish this time away with my young children.
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